Hold on

I sit here, gazing out my window
Watch the wind, it shakes the trees,
Try to suppress this memory
Of me crashing to my knees.

I stare in hopeful pretence
That you’re on your way back home,
But Inside I have this feeling
That you are really gone.

I fantasize that we’re together
Your loving arms around me tight,
Not here, alone and crying
Recalling that dreadful night.

Why, why couldn’t you listen?
Hear me calling you to stay,
Just thirty seconds longer
You’d still be here this day.

I fear these nights without you
I need to see and touch your face,
To have your lips on mine again
To sink in your warm embrace.

I don’t want to face this reality
I’m just not ready to say goodbye,
There is no life, no hope without you
I’m not even going to try.

Hold on babe I’m coming
I’m leaving this world with you,
Life means nothing, not anymore
I don’t think I’ll make it through.

Only one thing I need remains
So cold, this dagger in my hand,
My writing is on the table
This, the only thing to go as planned.

Close my eyes and raise my remedy
I no longer feel the pain,
I smile with tear drenched eyes
And I wait for my blood to drain.