Where once I was blind, now I can see!

Let us take a moment to think about the past year.

When 2008 came to an end and 2009 began, my life was in a completely different place. It wasn't the happiest of places. It was bitter, fearful, sad and delusional at times but 2009 saved me.

January began and I found it difficult to be myself. Afraid to let people know me. I had allowed 2008 to beat me down and make me feel inadequate but then February arrived and suddenly, a new breath of life came my way. Of course, it was slow to start but I fought my way through dark thought after dark thought and eventually I burst through the other side, victorious and able to show my true self. The year continued moving onward and upwards and with my new sense of freedom, confidence, hope and positivity I achieved so many wonderful things.

Although 2009 has been a challenging year for many; myself included; with so many sad memories. I cannot help but be thankful. Thankful for all the trials and struggles that were thrown my way, grateful for everything that I have had the opportunity to learn. It is because of everything that has happened, that I have found a strength and belief in myself and it is because of this that I know, 2010 has the potential to be the biggest and best year yet.

The sum of 2009 for me is about all of the fantastic people; who I now call friends and family; that I have had the pleasure to meet and get to know. Each of these people, in their own way, save me each and every single day and whether they understand it or not, I will be eternally thankful for having them in my life.

So to all those people: the artist, the comedian, the underdog, the faithful, the hopeful, the brave, the courageous, the loving, the caring, the rebel, the square peg in the round hole and the downright wacky... I bow to you now. I appreciate all that you are and will hold each of you in my heart always.

And to people who made this all possible: Shannon, Jared & Tomo. I thank you for all that you have given me, the music, the experiences but most of all, the family that I am a part of. A family that inspire me everyday, because with them, anything is possible.

So here's to a Happy New Year, to a healthy and loving 2010 filled with everything we could ever wish for. We will meet again on Mars, the first chance we get xx

30 Seconds to Mars - This is War review

Lyrically mesmerising and highly poetic, this spellbinding album; from the 1st listen; will bore its way into your mind and even further into your soul and leave you panting, wanting more and more. The haunting and breathy vocals of Jared are enough to leave you feeling slightly hypnotized but completely captivated. Shannon’s drumming is a masterful work of art, pulsating through to your very core. Tomo is also at a high with some of the most energetic and dynamic guitar you could ever wish for in a 30 Seconds to Mars album.


I absolutely love the 3rd Album and I am so pleased to have them back on the music scene and this album just shows everyone exactly what we have been missing.

Escape (Short and oddly sweet. Still cannot get into the chorus of 'This is war' at the end though)


Night of the Hunter (There is something rough, grim and; dare I say what some people are afraid to say; sexual about it that makes me love it, I also like the remix which is quite unusal and I normally hate remixes)


Kings and Queens (I prefer to hear this live now so the album version gives me nothing anymore. Dont get me wrong, it's a great track but its kind of anti-climactic after you hear it live)(The remix of K&Q however, i just dont understand one bit)


This is War (Again, i prefer it live but listening to the album version still makes me smile, except when it cuts off if you are listening on shuffle)


100 Suns (its ok, its a bit boring now. I think its been a bit overplayed)


Hurrikanye (this one was the shocker to me, I loved it. I even like Kanyes part and considering I do not like him that much I am surprised how much I love him in this track. However I also love the album verson of Hurricane too)


Closer to the Edge (at first I wasnt sure about it, but its damn catchy and therefore after 3 listens, i was hooked)


Vox Populi (I really like this, but during the far far away part I cannot help but think of baywatch... someone mentioned it and now its in my head everytime i hear it lol)


Search and Destroy (this is one of the ones that i wasnt too sure about at first but like CTTE, its way too catchy so I cannot help but like it now)


Alibi (absolutely love it. I think it helps that I am in a bit of a weird place in my life just now and this song just seems to hit the right notes lyrically and does it perfectly)


Stranger in a Strange Land (Love this track, its weird just how I like it )


L490 (I really couldnt get into this at first but love it now although the monks at the end, still freak me out - it makes me wanna run and hide. Not sure I'll be able to get over that)